love letter

dear lover-

lack of absence makes the heart grow complacent.  i'm sorry for taking you for granted.  i'm sorry for not seeing what's right in front of me.  it's so easy to ignore the person you see the most, but this is no excuse.  i want to do better.  i want to be grateful that i get to go to sleep next to you and wake up next to you.  to know that you're there even when i'm not conscious. 

when you have to go out of town my heart hurts.  i yearn for you.  and how i rejoice when you come home.  it should feel like that everyday.  everyday you come home.  if you ever have to go Home [big H] then i don't want to regret time wasted.  i want to breathe in your scent and feel your warmth on my skin and remember that i loved you the best i could. 

lately i've been learning that it's not love if you don't love during the hard times.  it's easy when things are good, but the rubber meets the road when it's tough.  i've had ample opportunities to love when it's tough and i haven't done so well.  it's easier to get angry or mad. 

here's to better days- to love in the good and bad.