stream of consciousness

Format taken from Jasmine Baucham's wonderful blog.  

 Stream of consciousness = a free flowing 'stream' of thoughts in random order as they float through my head. 

I've been thinking about so many things to blog about and I don't remember them all, so I'm just typing and telling you what comes out.  So many reasons NOT to blog lately.  The ever present chore of cleaning the house, a hard freeze that calls me to retreat to my bed and not leave my room, a weary body and a lazy attitude.  Today, we had a problem at the store, a wet problem.  Things are okay now.  I will not panic, I will not flip out and I will not worry.  Am I convincing you?!  Cause I'm trying to! 

I don't mind being pregnant, so far.  I wish I found my midwife already.  I'm still on the hunt.  Meeting with 2 more people this week and I'll make my decision then. 

Have to look for more help at work.  I'm so very frustrated with the process.  It's a stupid process that doesn't work and I waste a lot of time.  I must be productive this week and get loads done.  I can't afford to get behind. 

Trying to stay on top of things, trying to enjoy myself.  Trying not to stress out and get myself worked up over unimportant things.  Trying to break bad habits and make good ones. 

Trying, failing, humbling, forgiving, grateful, trying again.